Shri Bhutt Sahib was devoted wholly and solely to Shri Nathji and frequently wept before the portraits of Shri Nathji at his home. He had not an iota of doubt in his mind that Shri Nathji was God upon earth. Yet there were moments when his earlier ego asserted itself and made him deviate from the path of reverence to his Lord and Master. Though these were transient feelings that came and disappeared, yet they caused much concern to Shri Nathji.
Shri Nathji had often quoted Babaji Maharaj’s Persian verse, which was the voice of a devotee given over to impertinence:
“Karm-haaye maaraa kard gustaakh
Thy kindness made me impertinent”
Yes, this was human nature. The greater that the Lord bestowed His Kindness and Mercy upon a devotee, the more emboldened he became to raise his head before his own Master.
Shri Nathji would also quote the following verse in English:
“Blow, blow, thou winder wind,
Thou art not so unkind
As man’s ingratitude”
Irreverence from an unbeliever was acceptable, but irreverence from a believer greatly hurt God. It was the gravest of sins, and if a devotee escaped punishment for his misdemeanour it was entirely due to the Grace of God.