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Parmeshwari Das stayed on at Mussoorie for a few days, trying to serve the Lord as best as he could, although there was little to be done at Mussoorie where Shri Nathji had two servants who did all his work. Parmeshwari Das served the boys, Pran Nath and Priya Nath, and played records on their Gramophone. Mateshwari had kept a large assortment of records there, which ranged from bhajans and qawwaalis to film songs of Saihgal and others.
There was the one record, which the boys listened to again and again and which was also the favourite of Shri Nathji and Mateshwari. The record seemed to describe Shri Nathji:

Duaaen loon main uss dil kee jo duniyaan ke liye rote
Jahaan vaalon ke ranjo gham ko apne khoon se dhote

I seek the blessings of those whose hearts weep for the world,
Who wash away the sorrows of the world with their own blood.

Shri Nathji had often said:

Rahe phoolaa phalaa ye chaman meri ummeedon kaa
Jigar kaa khoon de de ke ye boote maine paale hain

May this garden of my flowering hopes bloom forever
I have nurtured these shrubs with the blood of my heart

As Parmeshwari Das placed the records on Mateshwari’s gramophone, he accidentally broke one of the records. The hurt of breaking the record never left his heart. Even as he took leave of his Master after a week’s stay at Mussoorie, he repeatedly asked forgiveness for breaking the gramophone record. Though both Shri Nathji and Mateshwari tried to console him he would not be consoled. In all his letters, afterwards, right up to the day he left the world, forty years later, he would ever recall his “sin” in breaking the record.
Shri Nathji’s divine grace for Parmeshwari Das was doubled because of that one incident.
Shri Nathji would recall how, during the days of his youth, he had once accidentally stepped on the toe of Shri Babaji Maharaj at Amritsar and how the nail had turned blue, and the hurt had never left Shri Nathji’s heart.