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It was a very emotional scene as I came to massage Him. I wept on His back, on His chest, saying:“Ham mar jaayenge agar aapko kuchh ho gayaa!“I will die if anything happens to you!”He consoled me:“Main ttheek hoon! Itni “I am all right. Do not worry so much. It is all the fault of this medicine. I wonder how Dr. Barat prescribed it without any experience with it.”“Meraa ye“This is my convalescence period. I shall be all right now. It is just this acute fatigue and nothing else.”As I continued to cry, knowing that some dreadful event was going to occur very soon, he said to me:“Huaa kyaa haiI said to Him, still crying:“Ham se aapki takleef naheen dekhi jaati. Itnee “I cannot see your suffer. You are enduring so much of suffering at the age of 90!”He said lovingly to me:“Aise to aur tabeeyat kharaab ho jaayegi. Aap ghabraaoge to hamen aur ghabraahat hogi!“I will only feel worse like this. If you remain so worried, it shall cause me greater worry.”Pitaji was right. I ought to have known how I was injuring His health by openly voicing such negative thoughts before Him, when I ought to have been encouraging him that nothing was wrong with Him. That was the way, Pran Nath would have expressed himself, brave spirit that he was, like Pitiji.“Aapne 120 saal ki umar tak raihne ka vaayeda kiya hai – itni “You had promised to live up to the age of 120–but not in so much misery. It must be in good health!”Pitaji agreed and said He would remain in good health:“Ttheek hi hoon! Ttheek hee rahoongaa!”I said to Him:“Apne“Why don’t you use your miracles for my sake?”I continued:“Itnee “I am spending the days in such agony!”I knew I should not have been saying these things. Pitaji would never use His miracles for healing His own body. And now that I had told Him that I was enduring unbearable agony on seeing Him ill, He would be more than ever inclined to leave – so that I would not have to endure such agony. “Meri “Leave aside worrying about me. I did not even care for that fever!”As I prayed, Pitaji’s output became better, and I prayed that it be greater than 600 cc at least, by the coming morning.“Agar“If there is an allergy does it not go?”And I said, yes, now that the drug was being washed out of His system.“Neend hee uchaat ho gayi.“I seem to have lost my sleep.”I have put His white shawl over Him. The room is cool. The night temperature appears to have fallen.“Neend uchaat ho gayi!”He does not waste even a single moment of the wakeful state of His Existence upon earth. He would often say:“The time of life is short, and we must accomplish what we have to do immediately.”