Pitaji had sometimes said to me:“Piyaji – aap apni“Piyaji – get married and return to your work at Harvard in America. Don’t worry about me. I have spent my life. I can live anywhere. I will keep a servant.”These words would break my heart. I could never even think in such a refrain, and would not allow Pitaji to voice such thoughts. Even now as I quote them, my eyes are filled with tears. What a dear, sacrificing Soul Pitaji was, willing to wither away, living alone, with just a servant in his old age and illness, just so that I could pursue my career in America.“Huzoor, Lok Kalyaan jaaye jahannam men. Aap ttheek raho!”“Sire, let the salvation of humanity go to hell! You must remain well!”Indeed anyone who loved Pitaji would place the worth of his heath above all else in the world.“‘Balgam’ to hai hi naheen!“There is no ‘balgam’ at all!”However, Shri Nathji had made the cryptic remark in the morning that His chest felt a bit strange, and wondered when it had been last examined:“Chhaati men ajeeb saaDuring the changing of His clothes, He had suddenly become tired, and worried, but didn’t tell me what He had felt. When I asked Him whether He was all right:“Tabeeyat ttheek hai?”He had replied:“Aaj subah se ttheek naheen hai!“I haven’t been feeling well since the morning.” But added:“Chhoti baaten to hoti raihti hain. Parvaa naheen karni chahiye.“These small things keep on happening all the time. We should not care for them.”Brave Soul that Pitiji is, He will go to any lengths to minimize the gravest of symptoms, so as not to worry me.When I express my fears and worries about the cough and ‘balgam’ again, Pitaji says strongly:“God bhee naaraaz ho jaayegaa ke ‘Main ne itnaa “God will be annoyed at our unhappiness. He will say: ‘I made the Eosinophilia disappear with my miracle, and they are still not pleased!’”Pitaji is God Himself and knows how important the giving of thanks is in the Spiritual Realm. But the real reason is that He does not want me to worry myself sick.