And a great tragedy resulted as I inadvertently jerked Pitaji’s pillow sideways, causing His neck to fall backwards, resulting in a terrible, horrible pain to Pitaji. “Piyaji, aisa to sochnaa bhee naheen chahiye.“Piyaji, you must not even think of such things!”He continued:“Ham to aap par hi“I am depending upon you to look after me, and you must remain well yourself.”O Lord, Pitaji had this dreadful pain many times. Each time Pitaji changed His posture in bed, each time He coughed, each time He got up for micturition, He had this deadly pain in the neck which made Him say: “Ooh – Ooh!” very loudly indicating the severity of the pain.“Haa ..Haa..!”O Lord, why? Why? Why? Why am I witnessing this dreadful agony of Pitaji? I am seeing my Dear, Dear Pitiji crucified before my eyes by none other than myself – I who love Him most of all. Why did this have to happen at my hands? O Dear, Dear, Lord, please stop Pitiji’s suffering – O Dear Lord, Pitiji, please stop THY suffering.