While Shri Nathji was convalescing from the arm operation in Mussoorie at Dilaram Estate, he had two visitors–Justice Girish Prasad Mathur of the Allahabad High Court, and Shri Kalka Prasad, Director of Public Health in U. P. They had heard of Shri Nathji’s Divine Powers at Allahabad and had come to Mussoorie especially for his darshan and blessings.
Shri Nathji was forbidden by the doctor to meet anyone. His attendants sent the visitors away. But Shri Nathji heard their footsteps and said to his attendants:
Call them back! I am a patient to my doctor and a doctor to my patients! These people need my assistance.
Forgive us for disturbing you in your illness, said his visitors, even as they came and bowed before him.
No, no, said Shri Nathji, You have not come to a doctor’s patient, but to a person whose life exists for people!”
Shri Nathji was in great pain at the time, but did not give any evidence of it. He spoke with his usual power and radiance. His listeners were swept away into another world.
Justice Girish Prasad Mathur said,
“I have come to ask an important question; is the state of God-Realisation a kind of hallucination?”
Shri Nathji gave a very beautiful answer:
When a person sleeps and dreams–is the dream real or unreal? For as long as the sleep persists, the dream is real. No one can call a dream unreal while he is experiencing it. It is a world in itself. It is only when the man wakes up that he calls his dream unreal.
“But, suppose a man were to go to sleep and never wake up. Suppose he were to go on dreaming forever–would that dream not become a reality for him?
“Similarly, those who experience God-realisation or God-consciousness never come out of that world; their eyes never open to this outer world; for them that state is very real. It is not a hallucination!”
And as Shri Nathji continued speaking, tears began rolling down the cheeks of Justice Girish Prasad Mathur.
Justice Mathur, Shri Nathji said, is this state real or unreal? Would you call these tears a hallucination, too?”
It was a unique state, and it was very real.
If a little bit of God-realisation can appear so real, said Shri Nathji, you can imagine the state of those who merge into it completely and never return!”
Shri Nathji continued:
These tears in your eyes. There is a word for them in Urdu, ‘Aansoo’!
“In Persian ‘Aan’ means ‘that’ and ‘Een’ means ‘this’.
“The tears that flow for the sake of God are ‘Aansoo’, and those that flow for the sake of the world are ‘Eensoo’.
“Jo Khudaa ke liye nikalte hain vo to Aansoo, baaki jo duniyaan ke liye nikalte hain, vo sab ‘Eensoo’!”
We are surprised at your forbearance, Maharaj, said Justice Girish Prasad Mathur to Shri Nathji, you have been speaking to us for over an hour now, and there must have been severe pain in your arm.
When I am in my divine consciousness, Shri Nathji replied, there is no such thing as illness.
Justice Girish Prasad thereafter acquired such great devotion for Shri Nathji that he would come for his darshan every time that Shri Nathji was at Mussoorie in the years that followed.