As the pain in Shri Nathji’s arm was increasing, Mateshwari asked him to go and rest in Mussoorie for a few months, where he could be away from the vitiated atmosphere of Dehra Dun. Both, Shri Nathji and Mateshwari, often felt that someone was slow poisoning Shri Nathji at Dehra Dun, which is why his arm trouble had flared up there.
Mateshwari herself stayed behind at Dehra Dun to retain possession of their rooms and belongings there, and sent Gopal Kasera with Shri Nathji. These were some of her most difficult days. Her letters to Shri Nathji, written regularly from Dehra Dun to Mussoorie during May-August 1941, show that for her Shri Nathji was the only God in the Universe, and that she accepted whatever came in life as a measure of His Divine Will.
She wrote in one of her letters that she was living only for his sake and that she would be with him, here as well as hereafter, in every birth, in every age. Her letters would begin with: My dearest Lord and Master! The Lord of the Universe!
No woman in the world had such great respect for her husband as did Mateshwari for Shri Nathji, whom she regarded as God.