Priya Nath often felt that the strain on Shri Nathji’s heart had come about by a combination of several factors–not the least of which was the sudden betrayal by the Urhekars.“Bas svarg to issee chaar deevaari men hai–baaki duniyaa men to nark hi nark hai!”“Heaven is only within those four walls where Shri Nathji resides. The rest of the world is only a living hell!”He experienced this more than ever after he had left Shri Nathji, and all his letters expressed repentance, in which he referred to himself as a ““Iptadaaye ishq hai rotaa hai kyaa,“This is but the beginning of Love, why weepest thou!Shri Nathji writes a ghazal on the fate of those who leave God and run after the things of the world:Teri maifil se jo niklaa saraapaa gham zadaa niklaa,He who leaves Thee, does so filled with complete sorrow, Shri Nathji had said: “Mujh se bhaag kar koyi kahaan jaayegaa? Jahaan vo jaayegaa, vahaan main paihle hi pahunchaa hoongaa!”“Where can one run away and hide from me? No matter where he goes, he shall find me there beforehand!”Shri Babaji Maharaj had been more stern in such matters: “Where can a man run from God? No matter where he goes, he shall find death waiting for him!“Kissee ne mujhse kahaa ke main aisee jagah chhupnaa chaahataa hoon jahaan Bhagwan na hon! To main ne kahaa: ‘Phir uss jagah chale jaayo jahaan maut naheen hai!’