O Pitiji, how can I ever forget thy love for me? O Lord, O Dear, Dear, Pitiji, I am worried that I am losing my memory. I can hardly remember THY FACE, can hardly remember thy dear, dear, Loving Voice speaking to me the whole day long in the past, when THOU hadst become so physically dependent upon me. “Piyaji, soye naheen?”“Piyaji, haven’t you gone to sleep yet?”I am forgetting the small chores O Dear, Dear, Pitiji – why didst Thou leave me fatherless? Why didst Thou leave me orphaned? O Lord, why art Thou wiping out the memories of our stay togther for 25 years in the same bedroom in this house where I am sitting now, all alone, writing these lines?O Lord, please let my tears never stop. O Lord, why are they not coming? Why am I not crying? Why is there no sadness, no sorrow in my heart? Why is there this stillness and Peace? Why, Peace? Why do I deserve Peace after committing such a heinous crime? Please let my writing go on night after night, although I have nothing to write about now except my sins – now that thou art gone.