Tuesday, April 28, 1992 began in a most horrible way. Early morning at 4 am Shri Nathji was in good humour as Priya Nath recorded a 500 cc output. “Heart“My heart is very strong! It is all due to the confusion created by these doctors.”Shri Nathji’s weight persists at 41.5 kg despite a good, final output of 960 cc – the best ever without a diuretic. Shri Nathji is annoyed at the persistent high weight, which is causing Priya Nath to despair so much about fluid retention.“O Lord, why must Pitaji suffer? This is a question I ask again and again of Thee, O Dear, Dear Lord!”Shri Nathji had often said:“I HAVE COME DOWN ON EARTH AS A MORTAL TO SUFFER AS OTHER MORTALS, SO THAT I MAY UNDERSTAND THEIR SUFFERING AND SEEK TO REMOVE IT!”Shri Nathji used to say:“Bhagwan Sat-Chit-Anand swaroop hain. Unmen dukh kaa anubhav naheen. Jab vishva ke praani praarthnaa karne lage ke hamaare dukh door karo – to vo sochne lage ke dukh kiss cheez ko kaihte hain? To dukh kaa anubhav karne ke liye unhen svaiyam prithvi par manushya roop men aana parra, taake vaih manushya maatr ke dukhon ko samjhen, or unko door karen!“God is Sat-Chit-Anand: Absolute Knowledge, Absolute Consciousness and Absolute Bliss. And where these qualities exist, there can be no sorrow. When the people of the earth prayed to God for the removal of their sufferings, God could not understand what suffering was! So how could He answer their prayers! Therefore He had to come down to earth in human form to endure suffering – so that He could understand what sorrow meant, and then seek to remove the sufferings of man.”“O Lord, I was the criminal – as I always am – in such matters that destroy Pitaji’s health, and well-being.”Later Shri Nathji wonders why He, too, was arguing over the point so persistently, worrying over the low intake of fluids, and not wishing to impede the wonderful diuresis, which He had described as GOD’s GIFT.“Iskaa zyaada mind naheen karna chahiye!“KiskaaAnd, then, adds, cheerfully:“Dekhen Dalia leke aaj! Afterwards He falls asleep in His armchair in his cotton shirt and pyjama. The Air conditioner is on.“Aap hee to saari dekh bhaal kar rahe hain. Inn“You are the one who is looking after me, and saving me from the mistakes of these doctors.”The rest of Tuesday passes quietly. Shri Nathji speaks to a devotee from Allahabad who has leucoderma on his face, which Priya Nath fears may be contagious and may infect Shri Nathji.